Life is a difficult thing to deal with. How do i deal with a friends that i hate? but i love them all the same. Damn it I don't know how i feel. I have mixed emotions. I want my friend to be happy. I feel like my gut is being punched. I feel like My friends don't understand me. I don't think i under stand me. Why can't I just live in the moment. Why can't i just have fun and talk with some new random people.