So today has turned out to be a shitacular day. This blog is more like a bitch and moan spot. but im kinda annyoed. my external hd died and i can't believe i went and bought food for people who didn't come over. I feel like crap but i kinda wanna hurt myself. I feel like the song johnny cash.where he talks about hurting himself to make himself feel pain. im sick of being me i want it to end. Waking up is jsut a chore.