It hurts, There's a pain in my chest
A deep gaping hole in my chest, The darkness fills my body and my soul
My soul feels like its leaking out
The feeling that are supposed to be there aren't there.
The task in front is not too big but it seems like nothing I do
Even if i look forward to something its just disappointment with
What if's

I'm searching for tranquility, I want balance, Would i be happy if i left it all behind.
Take my shot, do my thing, grind it out?
or Do I stay in mediocrity and remain content with being lucky.
Lucky that my family has some money. I'm lucky that I don't have to pay rent, I'm lucky that my parents will support me in what ever I do.

What do I do? Should i stay or should I go.
Life is too short to not do what you like
I'm just so tired of grinding.