Being a nice guy sucks. Its hard to understand why women like bad guys, its all hard to understand why women want somthing else. I don't understand alot of things and women is one of them. I don't know how to pick up a woman I'm not really sure that i know how come she didn't like me. I guess i should ask her next time. I guess teh answer that im not looking for is the "your not my type" thats such a bull answer . I want somthing more specific. But if she says that it proves my point that she don't dig asian guys. Just like in the movies. she sure does watch alot of movies though. It was my mistake . I need to re dedicate myself to what I do and what im good at. finish up school and walk away from everything. Thats all I can really do now is just walk away . concentrate of who I am.

Ever say something really really stupid and wish you could take those precious few seconds back to not say those words. I just had that moment. The girl i liked asked me for a favor and thanked me with i love you. Why oh why did i say those exact same words back. Man i feel like goof. LOL you could call my goofy retarted waht have you man im such a dork and an idiot with girls. Why do these rules need to be so complicated. These courting women should not be this difficult let alone strict on rules. Blah so i think i will be depressed very very soon for a very very long time. once agian i screwed things up with a really great person. I need to learn from my mistakes not be paranoid and just let thigns flow. Just not let words flow out of my mouth.