Man i feel like shit. Damn it why do i feel like shit.. Drinking with them dosn't make me feel any better. watching him flirt with her makes me sick. Just the thought of it gives me night mares. Damn it why can't the vocies in my head leave me alone. Damn my heart hurts. I should really stop drinking. I needa stay away from the energy drinks i think thats what is going to kill me one day. Every day seems like a day of hopelessness and depression. I tire of this. I can't do anything i can't do anything right. I feel so hopeless Some times i feel like It would be better if it just ended.