I think my inablitliy to feel for some one else has to do with my friends that i have. The girls that affect me in life play such a large roll in my life do i really have time for a relationship with a one person? Is it possible that I just will be unhappy for the rest of my life. What will be is in store for me in the future. There are 2 weeks left of school and then thats it. Where do i go from here. Time is almost up to figure that one out. My friends and parents believe in me why don't i believe in me? I have some skills that i can use to make money but

Man i feel like shit. Damn it why do i feel like shit.. Drinking with them dosn't make me feel any better. watching him flirt with her makes me sick. Just the thought of it gives me night mares. Damn it why can't the vocies in my head leave me alone. Damn my heart hurts. I should really stop drinking. I needa stay away from the energy drinks i think thats what is going to kill me one day. Every day seems like a day of hopelessness and depression. I tire of this. I can't do anything i can't do anything right. I feel so hopeless Some times i feel like It would be better if it just ended.