The last 2 years have flown by so fast, the last 5 even faster.

I am at the end of a chapter in my life and beginning a new one.  I am far from sure that I have made the right choice but this also everything seems to coming to an end and a new beginning.

On June 1st,  I will officially be unemployed an my very good friend will have left California.  

In the terms of leaving my job,  In my mind i feel like I am running through the forest with a bungee cord that when you reach the end it rips you back where you are supposed to be.  You are really never in any real danger  because you know that cord is there to pull you back to safety.  By quitting my job and taking that leap of faith a few images come to mind,  the Scene from Rise: of Batman,  When Bruce Wayne figures out that he can not make that final leap out of the prison with out the safety rope.

secondly,  In my mind back to running in the forest i feel like I just cut the rope and as June 1st quickly approaches  I suddenly do not feel the rope holding me back now.  

I feel that I am running towards the sun rise, there is darkness just being illuminated by the morning sun,   I am running towards the cliff.  in hopes that I can fly.  I am running as fast as I can so that i can fly.


I am trying to trust my uncle,  I am supposed to believe that he will take care of things. This leap of faith was put in the hands of a very successful man.  I feel that if i can even walk part of his path I will be very comfortable.  I am not afraid to work hard.

I need to bring myself together, I need to trust in the system,  I need to cut dead weight,  and not dwell on the past.  I must learn from it and continue to press forward.  This is the only way for me to become better.  I will take the lessons that I've learned and push forward.  We all make mistakes,  I only live once.  but the scrutiny is gone. I don't know where I will be and having plans in the future is  making me nervous.  I want to protect my friends, I want to be there for my friends but I am not sure I will make it.  I hope I can be strong enough to be part of this world.

Here's to moving forward!  Here's to closing the chapter and opening a new one.  Here's to not letting fear control me.