What exactly is a date? I'm not really sure anymore. So yesterday I thought it was an awsome day date sorta. Like 95% awsome. Had a great lunch at yard house with an awsome girl. But the other thing about it is im not sure it was a romantic date. 2 friending haning out haing lunch and a movie dons't constitute a date nessisarly. So was it a date? I'm not sure. It was fun to have lunch and talk with her though. So lets start with, Lunch at yard house pretty good. Next cool movie deffeinatly, maybe. Thats the one with Ryan Renyolds or somthing. So yeah pretty neat movie for a Febuary movie. It was pretty cool having coffee and getting to know her. but im not really convinced that this is a situation that i can't not be happy with. Im really happy witht heh way the day was but im not sure its a romantic date which i guess im ok with. But i suppose last nights dream was somthing of a weird dream cuse all i dremed about was making out with someone. a person with no face. I wonder what that means. Im not really sure. its been so long that i've done that that i feel like i need pratice. Ughhh i m soo confused. It was kinda intersting finding someone who feels the same way about picking someone up at a bar. FInally i have somoene that i can share my thoughts about that with. blah someone is here and i don't wanna write anymore

Valintines day is for girls. So why am i doing all this work for people that really in all acutality it doesn't matter. Its a kind gesture. C, questions why i do what i do. The way that i am. I'm not really sure. I suppose its this quest to get people to like me. I can't stand the thought of someone not liking me. I also don't like the thought of being alone constantly. its bothersome but its also who I am. I want people to like me. I want people to see this person who can do alot of things well. I can't stand thinking that I didn't do my best to help people out.